So I start my 31st week tomorrow. I am catching a train today to go down and see Michael. I miss him so much, I am so excited to see him. He hasn't been gone for long and I am already going crazy without him. Last Wed I ended up in the hospital for high blood pressure, but as soon as I got to the hospital, the problem seemed to disappear. So now I am monitoring myself daily and the drs are monitoring me weekly. I need to go get ready for my train.
So yesterday I had my 29th week appointment. The good news is the baby seems to be doing just fine. He is active and growing and strong. I gained another 11 pounds these last four weeks. The dr was a bit suprised by this but I am not obese so she isn't worried. The bad news. My blood pressure is a bit high. The top number is two points off of the worry zone. There are a lot of stresses in my life right now though. Like Michael leaving on monday. I am all panicky and upset by it. And what if I have problems now? He won't be here to make sure I am ok. But mostly I am just going to miss him. I haven't been away from him where I didn't see him at least once a day in over two years. I don't know how to do it. I love having him around. Thats why I married him, so I could spend every day for the rest of my life with him. Now I have to spend two months away from him? While I am in my third trimester of my pregnancy no less. I am a mess.
I went to the beach today. The waves were too strong for me. I was worn out after only a few minutes. I have spent the rest of the day exhausted. I took a nap, but it didn't seem to help. I have been cranky off and on today, but this evening for a moment I actually was feeling silly and happy. Now I am coming down from that and I feel worse. This pregnancy is really wearing me out. I sure hope that things go back to normal after the baby is born. I don't know how much more of this my body and sanity can take. Maybe tomorrow will be better...